How did it happened this way

cos my 6th sense is better.

what a good actress i am..

i dun mind hw hurt i am or how my heart is tearing  out now..

is only me n my close frenz who noe how i feel

pride me anyone.

just done a simple collage of us..this was taken when he was with me in Sg feb 2011.

Mj dad was not well, thus he quit his job and flew back to msia. Prior to this, quite few things happened to us..with the end results of the ping pings here trying to be funni in our rship.  I was never dat bias against them till the case between MJ and me.  even the simplest plain jane will also try their “luck” to get their one way ticket out of their life.

This incident caused a stain in our rship and we are both still trying to forget about the whole thing. I cannot either and am trying to overcome myself for this case.

Not all are like that i have to agree. i had met with good ones in Qatar and also my domestic helper who had been with us for almost 2 decades but it just takes some to reflect a bad name on all.  Am of course is tit for tat, those who treat me correct, will get the same treatment, those with horrogible attitude, am so sorry, get the venom from me.

after MJ went back to Msia. iit was my annual leave off. i went back to SG for a month for my trip. i met up with many frenz, went to Melaka to see MJ and his parents. We had a quarrel there, i reali duno whats wrong with me. Being such a confident all rounder at work but i became a sucky worrying lady when it came to rships. The quarrel was quite bad and i reali duno what to do with it still. I still love Mj but there are lotsa stuff dat we both have to go through for all the distances and communication issues that will surface.

Till now, am at a cross rd, i hv to be independent but i still  need to talk to him. Sometimes i feel dat i need an outstretch hand that even frenz coulld oni stay at friend’s stretch. I see myself tearing sometimes cos to talk to someone dat is close to you is so far away. the mental torture that not knowing what’s gg on and such is creating havoc in my head. Good fren told me i have to “guo wo nah guan”  so that i am free and to realise that not everyone is like my Ex.

Good fren was someone i met in my job away, we both know quite a bit of things about one another and it never amazes me dat he could give me pts of view from both points of the sexes. only i know why.

17th nov will be my last day in Qatar, spells the end of wat i want to do. i fulfilled the must have in my life for work at least.  This plc leaves me with both happiness and sadness at the same time.

well, next post on will be some othe stuffs..

cheerios

its inevitable thay Qatar had become back to worse for my job. Not only am i dealing with political/ sometimes race issues. Am oso stuck in a world that only i am the empire.

it sucks when you are the only sole survivior out of the many who were with u to fight the war.

and it’s even more painful when there is so much more pressure sustained from a loved one.

I dun feel myself anymore and i think..i might be slowly going back into my own world in no time.

if you see certain things and u start to become unsure of things

what will you do.

i duno what i will do not…maybe i will be what i did last time again

picture coutesy of:http://dekku.nofatclips.com/2007/10/sasol-puppet.html

still under wraps in co..but well let’s see how it goes

Was talking to MJW abt the issue yday and my 1st thot was to leave if it were to happen, i never thot otherwise nor did i thot abt us. But i was surprised by his thots on the issue , his thots that never crossed my mind before, his planning ahead that never came across to me at the moment.

He asked me to listen to him 1st before anything. I felt gulity, he seem to think a lot more for us than me and I am very touched by these gestures.  We are now under wraps abt us in the co so well hope we can maintain it.

wish me luck =]

am still thinking if i shld post our photo here, will update again.

1 mth in qatar, had gotten myself into the same kind of trouble in SG..things are a tat trickier here but just well..i had to put it in a way thats nicer and also to get my msg across.  Things are much easier to get away in singapore i guess…sigh…

Work is very challenging and i mean it..everything is from scratch and it’s reali like having to drum up lotsa support from various depts..drumming up as in ..the rush fr timeline, demand and people..wish me luck pepz.

Anyway work aside, had been glad my coll are a nice bunch of people and most of them nv failed to crack me up..had encountered some issues dat i thot i had enuf in sg..but i do hope my msg did get across..phew

it’s funny how i cld meet someone here with the same kind of lifestyle and world as me..a few drinks over and we found out abit of one another..few more weeks i be moving up further..duno if we cld kip up with one another cos we will be staying at diff places..this just amuses me.

let’s hope i get my rp soon..dan dubai here we come..

I wun see u anymore in future…

gd luck to u n ur old divorcee woman kan.